So last july of 2012 I did something sexual for the first time in my life. Never in life had I done anything before. I am a guy guy. I am 20 now, I was 19 when it happened. So what I did was receive oral sex. I havent done anything after that. I am not very sexual. Well after that I started to notice skin problems. AND I PANICED. I went mental after that. I never truly was the same. I went crazy with the thought that i might have HIV. That I could have gotten HIV that way. From my first experience. I had met a guy at a party and well I was stupid and things happened. Point is i went mentally insane after that. All I could think of was that I could have HIV. So life passed me by I dropped out of school and lost my job because I would never go. I kept thinking and thinking how my life could be over but didn't want to take the HIV test. Finally last month, on january, I worked up the courage to go to the doctor and asked to take the HIV test and my exposure, the doctor said that hiv isn't passed that way only unprotected anal/vaginal sex. I still took the test. The oraquick and it was negative. Thank god. I went home and began to live life again. But my skin problems continued. I am now worried the test could have been a false negative.. and suddenly all the hiv fears are coming back. Also I will go to another doctor and will have to explain SO MUCH to the doctor. I am so afraid, I don't know what these skin problems could be..
can someone give me feed back and help me cope